Monday, April 20, 2009

小米

我曾经以为,所有快乐的故事,都会有一个快乐的结局,就好像小米,那样可爱温顺的性格,应该是得到所有人的宠爱的。我还挺羡慕他的生活,又自由,又有爱。不止一次想过要收养他,可是第一小区里大家都很喜欢他,第二,一直对自己的未来不确定。而我总以为,如果我要养一只猫猫或狗狗,我就一定会陪它一辈子。

最近很长一段时间都没看到小米,而且不只是小米,小区曾经巨多的流浪猫猫都几乎看不见了。我总是想是被什么人收养了吧,还觉得小米一定正幸福着。偶尔看见,打个招呼就好。但是今天早上,我意外地发现了小米,背对着我。我赶紧叫:小米,小米!以前赶都赶不走的小米,却象受了惊吓似的,慌不迭走得远了些。我跟过去,他始终不让我靠近。他的叫声,也不象过去那样甜蜜娇憨,而是夹杂了痛苦和怀疑。仔细一看,他的一只耳朵附近好像破了一块,露出鲜红的肉。再一瞧,怎么走起路来有些一瘸一拐的,右脚似乎断了!我不知道小米曾经有过什么样的遭遇,但我猜和人有关。在附近曾经的猫群里,小米的体格和力气都占优势,而且,他对人的态度变化如此巨大,让我不能不想到他可能是受了人的伤害。小米躲在一辆汽车的后面,而我也只好先上班去了。

我决定要收养小米。虽然不知道什么时候才能找到他,但我要治好他的伤。我们会相互陪伴。如果有一天我不得不离开这片大陆或者这个世界,相信一定能找到一个喜欢猫猫的可以信赖的朋友,把小米托付给她(他)。因为小米,我希望你不要抱着怨恨和悲伤度过以后的生活。

还有,过去曾有两只好小只的猫猫,一只我在可以救它的时候没有救它,想要救它的时候已经太迟了;另外一只,长得好象王小猴的,吃过我做的拌饭,后来我才知道猫猫是不能吃很油的东西的,而且,不久以后就再也没有看见它。我总是安慰自己说它可能被人收养了,但是也许是我的拌饭。。。我很后悔。希望,对于小米,我可以不留下悔恨。

2 comments:

wintersunray said...

I may never be a happy person myself, but I surely hope I could make one little cat happy again.

Joker, I actually don't think you would lose in the "social experiment". But people need not to be blamed even so. A mockery of pure goodness does not have to be pure evil. You should know that.

wintersunray said...

So I talked to a neighbor who midwifed Little Rice. Apparently at a recent point the condominium office decided that there should not be cats around and they caught most of them with traps - I haven't confirmed where those poor things ended up but it doesn't look good. Perhaps with all the fears around, little rice ran away and seemed to have been caught and tortured by some unknown person. He escaped, visited back once, but was gone again. We don't know where he is now.

You know, I didn't realize, that for a little kitty, happiness is, too, like an evanescent bubble. If I live through this year and the next, I hope to have a little creature as my company. I'm going to protect it from harm and pain within its life time, and I hope to gain its friendship, a friendship that will not abandon me in my darkest moments.