After the storm

Just a note: the first pic is actually water in the gutter. Isn't water just fantastic?

Once a homeland

The Butterfly Garden

There is this little garden in the medical center. I actually didn't write down its name. I call it the butterfly garden. The butterfly garden is not an ordinary garden, at least in my view. It was in fact specially built for the patients, including many cancer patients in the nearby hospitals. The idea is to create this pretty, little world in the midst of the busy city for the patients to rest, to take a stroll and to convalesce. I love it. Exactly as Bishop Myriel in "Les Miserables" said: "The beautiful is as useful as the useful ... perhaps more so".

The lonely lookout at sunset

The Painted Veil - A La Claire Fontaine


Quote from "Dan in Real Life": Love is not a feeling, it's an ability. Said by a teenager. Quite impressive, but let me modify it a bit:
Love isn't a decision. It is a feeling. Love is not just a feeling. It is an ability.

Weary Spring

Nah, Spring is good. It is I who am weary.

More practice

今天下午义工开会，是个可以考虑选择其它工种的机会。阴差阳错，我居然一咬牙去了。结果！太让我激动了。因为。。。我旁边坐着三个美女，都是水灵灵的18岁啊（<=18）。尤其其中的一个，是那种千载难逢的大美女。言谈之中，好像都已有多年义工经历。外表和心灵的完美统一！我托腮，坐立不安的踌躇了半晌（大美女MM看了我好几眼，不知道是不是我太色迷迷样了），终于厚着脸皮问：你们几个太可爱了，可不可以让我拍张照片啊？美女MM们非常非常nice，很配合地来了个cheers。可惜我心情太激动，又有些窘迫，又不好意思多拍，匆忙地只照了一张，完全没有把美女们的神韵真正表达出来！真是太遗憾了。也许以后再也没有机会见到她们。。。可爱的小MM们，你们就是一束束阳光。我祝愿你们未来的人生，永远充满欢笑和爱的温暖。

Practice on night scene

A beautiful malentendu

I love birds, or maybe more truthfully, I've always been fascinated by birds. Being in the city though, I don't get to see many birds close by except pigeons. The most commonly seen pigeons around the city, I'd say, are rock pigeons. They are all right. The way they fly is just as impeccable. But in this twisted dreamy head of mine, I sometimes feel rueful that they seem to be a bit too stocky and strong-colored for my ideal image of birds. ( to be continued)

水是悲欢离合

A Cloudy Evening

A peek to another world


Wait and Hope


今天下午做了件极其愚蠢，令我后悔莫及的事情，就是一不小心把一份数据给删了。满头大汗地恢复了一个下午未果，只好再做一次实验了。很惭愧，怎么说也是老革命了，居然出了这样的事情。老板人很好，都没有怎么责备我，可是我。。。

回家的路上突然意识到，下午虽然后悔地撞墙（是真的撞了一下哦！），但是心理上所受的煎熬，不及平素不能自拔时的百分之一。竟然又稍稍地佩服了下自己。还好今天是个好天，我就象第二张里面的那只鸽子，在漫长的等待中还有一点甜蜜的希望。另外一个感想是，原来我这人很少后悔。世界上的事情，或者我们所做的选择，真的很少有绝对的对和错。当然，今天下午，我是绝对绝对的错了。即使这样，事后后悔也无益，只有继续向前走。

Officially Spring

So 10:44 this morning was the exact moment of Spring equinox. Thanks to facebook, I learned from a couple of friends with Iranian lineage that the Persian New Year is in fact Spring equinox. I think this is neat. In theory the Chinese New Year also celebrates the Spring, but to me it's more like a symbol saying "OK, the Spring is going to come in three months." Not that I don't like our own traditional festival, I just think the idea of setting the new year as the time when the Spring actually arrives refreshing.

I like the Spring, especially after all the cold and dark nightmares. She is a promise that will always be kept, that she will come back again, that flowers will blossom always once more. Well this is not a time to get sentimental. Just laugh and enjoy her presence now, and wait for the next one!

往事

The Past


Have been rather depressed since last weekend. Yesterday was particularly bad. I was so angry and scared, if what happened a couple of weeks ago recur, I seriously think I might go officially insane this time. Anyway for now, it's past, and I'm happy that I'm not hopelessly sad or irked at the moment. whoopie!

A Foggy Day

Sun in the fog

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Road in the fog

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Sun comes out, flowers blooming, still

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The red ones

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I think they look like tears

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Sky and cloud are all beautiful again - probably because they carry no memory of the past

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A rainy day

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Marvin, dear old Marvin, how did you do it for over 570,000,000,000 years?

How did you hold on when no one truly cared about you, when everybody abandoned you, ignoring your desperate cry for help ? You hanged on, whereas anything else that was remotely intelligent couldn't when they "felt" what you'd been through. I just can't imagine how.

The past is never gone, and it never will. It made you who you were, a gloomy, depressed being who suffered through all eternity. Strangely a lot of people outside of that imaginary world like you. I don't know why. Some of the possible reasons that I don't want to believe are so dreadful.

Anyhow, I like you because you make me feel that perhaps I'm not completely lonely. But of course I feel bad about thinking that way. If things can start over, I would rather to be completely lonely. And no I will not hang on as you did. As beautiful as the world can be, it's not worth it.

有天傍晚

white moon
白月亮


flower in the wind
风中的小花

A March Saturday Morning

A March Saturday Morning
三月里的某一天

a small flower bed commonly seen in residential areas close to where I live
附近小区很普通的小花坛

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a yellow flower

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bush flower

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another kind of common small flowers that I always like

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I have a thing for flowers, especially those that we see every day by the road (or wild flowers). I'm not sure how many people have really paid attention to them or appreciated their existence. Well they are definitely joy, sometimes meaning of life, to me. They are laid out on a shallow layer of special soil, and are supposed to blossom as long as they can. When their time is up, people simply replace them. I guess with my scientific mind I doubt they have the ability to think or feel, but I choose to believe that they live their short lives happily, and know that it is all worthwhile.
我很喜欢花，特别是道边最常见的小花（或者野花）。不知道有多少人真的注意过它们，欣赏过它们。至少对我而言，它们就是欢乐，有时更是生命的意义。道边的小花被种在浅浅一层营养土上，热烈地开放，直到死亡，然后会被另一批小花换下。我知道它们大约和我们不同，没有思想也没有感情，但我宁愿相信它们短暂的一生充满了欢欣，充满了信念。

this is at one of the several plazas in Chinatown, I think the cobble stone thing is pretty neat

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a rather charming fountain decoration in front of a bank

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from another angle, with flower bed. do you see the sky in the window reflection? one thing about sky is that nothing can distort it.
一家银行前的喷泉。注意窗玻璃上的天空，和电线杆对比一下。没有什么能扭曲天空，是不是？

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who has not loved dandelions and played with their seeds as a kid? when you grow up, when you find it lonely and missing half of its heart, would you still like it? I do.
记得儿时的蒲公英么？长大以后，看见这么一支孤独的，残破的蒲公英，你还会喜欢它么？

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next is a lake by beltway 8, a place that gives me comfort in my darkest moments.
路边有个无名湖

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wild flowers by the lake

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water bird flying. yes I have a thing for birds too

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goodbye sky, see you every day

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说明一下，这些图片被Picasa处理小了，特别是湖的片片，直接去相册选择slide show，可以看见比较清晰的大图，然后就能看到飞翔的水鸟了～