Simplest Love

I've been reading "Mere Christianity" by C.S. Lewis, a gift from a friend of mine. I absolutely adore JR Tolkien and CS Lewis, the combination of humbleness and talent simply soothes me. If there's any book about Christianity I'm willing to start reading, one of theirs is the way to go. So for the past week or so, during my daily commuting trips, amid the often painful or angry, desperate turmoil of my thought streams about the past and future, I began to read this book bit by bit. It seems that the author was trying to reach the point of setting the religious ground by logic deduction, although frankly many of his arguments are not compelling to me. I do understand his perspective however, in fact very much so, especially considering the historic background with which the content of this book was broadcasted in Britain to people who suffered greatly from the hateful war. More than 60 years later, these words are still comforting to a lost soul such as mine.

For those interested, here is a text version of the book
Mere Christianity

I have not yet finished the book, but have developed this thirst to revisit some essay by a world leading neuroscientist William Newsome. I do not know him directly, but I know quite a few people who knows him well. Of course, his work in Science is simply beautiful. I came to know that he was a Christian apart from a brain scientist many years ago, which was quite puzzling to me. Having been trained in this field for 10 years, most of my friends and colleagues are atheists. So I remembered that I dug out an essay that he wrote about Science and Faith and started reading it. But I suppose I didn't really put my heart in it or did not have the motivation to think from a different perspective, and just left things there. Now out of respect to CS Lewis, as well as my own desperate needs to search meaning and support, it's time to see what a big fellow working to understand the brain says about his thoughts on science and religion. The two points he clearly made as reconcilable tension between the two domains strike me this time, one being different methods deployed, the other being the difficult position of understanding free will from a deterministic point of view. More of the former for me, perhaps.

For those interested, here is a video clip of Bill's talk
William Newsome - Science and Faith, A Personal View (English)
Two essays
Science and Faith, A Personal View
Life of Science, Life of Faith (this one is more like the script of the talk)

Another relevant talk by Francis Collins, Head of the Human Genome Project. I went to his talk with a friend on Jan 21st in fact, which was also the occasion where I got the book "Mere Christianity". I like the way Newsome delivered the points, but I think essentially they are making similar arguments. As I have been thinking since a long time ago, ultimately it is a choice we have to make ourselves. To me the current situation I'm through is so hurtful that I'm thinking how to make that choice again, or, even more seriously.


I should get back to the beloved CS Lewis. One line from his "Mere Christianity" is this: "Because free will though it makes evil possible, is also the only thing that makes possible any love or goodness or joy worth having." I couldn't have agreed more. Love may be irrational, but the love I've felt out of my own choice, which is 99% of the case, have given me the greatest joy or shall I say, ecstasy in the whole world. However, due to my personal pathological condition of the incapability to control emotions in a healthy, normal way, I have deliberately banned myself from any strong feelings. I hate myself for the sorrow and rage that I constantly feel. At the same time I am afraid that if I let myself pursue the peak of a mood swing, I would only fall lower and harder in the next trough. I've been noticing that repeatedly in the past. But this state of numbness is not stable either, for I'm generally unhappy, and the slightest disturbance tends to throw me off balance, maybe not to the bottom of the abyss, but pretty awful still. I know I am sick, but to straighten myself avoiding the good things along with the bad may not be the real effective way. Perhaps it's time to allow my heart be gentle again, by starting to plainly enjoy the moments of love in life. I'm hoping some day, I will be able to love and forgive unconditionally.

I found these very cute comments about love by kids from 4-8 years old. You might be surprised to see that in the most naive and pure minds, love can be so simple yet so deep. But then when you think of it, it's not so surprising after all.

And here we go (followings are all direct quotes from the web) -

Actual Children answers to the question “What is Love”. Love according to Kids.
“When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different.You just know that your name is safe in their mouth. Billy - age 4
“Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologneand they go out and smell each other.” Karl - age 5
“Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs.” Chrissy - age 6
“Love is what makes you smile when you’re tired.”Terri - age 4 “Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sipbefore giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK.” Danny - age 7
“Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more.My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss” Emily - age 8
“Love is what’s in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen.” Bobby - age 7
“If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate,” Nikka - age 6
“Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday.” Noelle - age 7
“Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still> friends even after they know each other so well.” Tommy - age 6
“During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling.He was the only one doing that. I wasn’t scared anymore.”Cindy - age 8
“My mommy loves me more than anybody.You don’t see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night.”Clare - age 6
“Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken.”Elaine-age 5
“Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Brad Pitt.”Chris - age 7
“Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day.”Mary Ann - age 4
“I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones.” Lauren - age 4
“When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn’t bend over and paint hertoenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That’s love.”Rebecca- age 8
“When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you.” (what an image)Karen - age 7
“You really shouldn’t say ‘I love you’ unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget.” Jessica - age 8

And the winner was a 4 year old child whose next door neighbor was an elderly man who had just lost his wife. When the child saw the man cry, the little boy went over into the man's yard and climbed on top of the man's lap and just sat there.
When the boy's mother asked him what he'd said to the neighbor, the little boy said, "Nothing, I just helped him cry."

中文版：“爱是什么意思？”
　1. "我奶奶得了关节炎，再也不能弯下来涂脚趾甲。于是我爷爷总是给她涂，甚至当他自己的手得了关节炎也是这样。这就是爱。"　　
　　丽贝卡- 八岁
　　
　　2. "当有人爱上你，他说你名字的方式是不一样的。你就知道你的名字在他嘴里说出来感觉棒极了。"
　　比利 - 四岁
　　
　　3. "爱就是女孩抹香水男孩涂古龙水，然后他们出去，互相闻着。"
　　卡尔 - 五岁
　　
　　4. "爱就是当你出去吃饭时，你把自己大部分薯条给某个人，而却并不在意他是不是也给你。"
　　克里希- 六岁
　　
　　5. "爱就是在你累的时候让你笑起来的东西。"
　　特里- 四岁
　　
　　6. "爱就是当我妈咪给爹地泡咖啡，在给他之前先尝一口，看看味道是不是还可以。"
　　丹尼 - 七岁
　
　　7. "爱就是你们一直接吻的时候。然后你们厌烦了接吻，但你们仍然想呆在一起，而且你们聊得更多。妈咪和爹地就是这样的。他们接吻的时候，看上去很下流。"
　　　　艾蜜俐 - 八岁
　　
　　8. "爱就是圣诞节当你在房间里拆开礼物时，让你停下来去听的东西。"
　　鲍比 - 七岁
　　
　　9. "如果你想学着爱得更好，就应该从爱你所恨的人开始。"
　　妮卡 - 六岁
　　
　　10. "爱就是当你告诉一个男孩你喜欢他的衬衫，他就每天都穿着它。"
　　诺艾尔 - 七岁
　
　　11. "爱就像一个小老太婆和一个小老头儿，尽管他们彼此很了解，但却仍然是朋友。"
　　汤米 - 六岁
　
　　12. "在钢琴独奏会上，我在台上，很紧张。望着台下，所有人都在看我。我看到爹地冲我挥手微笑，只有他一个人这么做。我就不再感到紧张了。"
　　辛迪 - 八岁
　
　　13. "妈咪爱我胜过所有人。没有人像她那样在晚上吻着我入睡。"　　
　　克莱尔 - 六岁
　　
　　14. "爱就是在妈咪把最好的鸡块给爹地的时候。"
　　伊莱恩 -五岁
　　
　　15. "爱就是妈咪看到爹地一身臭汗的样子却仍然说他比劳勃·瑞福还帅。"
　　克莉丝 - 七岁
　　
　　16. "爱就是你一整天扔下你的小狗狗不管，而它却仍然舔你的脸的时候。"
　　玛丽·安 - 四岁
　　
　　17. "我知道我姐姐爱我，因为她把她所有的旧衣服都给了我，而她却不得不出去买新的。"
　　劳伦 - 四岁
　　
　　18. "当你爱上某个人，你的睫毛忽上忽下的，小星星从里面出来。" (这会是什么样子)
　　卡伦 - 七岁
　　
　　19. "爱就是当妈咪进卫生间看到爹地在里面，而她却并不觉得恶心的时候。"
　　马克 - 六岁
　　
　　20. "你真的不能说出‘我爱你’，除非你是来真的。但是一旦你是来真的，你就应该经常说。人们总是忘记。"
　　杰西卡 - 八岁
　
　　21. 最后一个 -- 作家兼讲师里欧·布斯加利亚曾经谈到一次比赛，当时他被邀去当评委。那次比赛是要评出最有爱心的小孩。获胜者是一个四岁的孩子，他的邻居是一位新近丧妻的老者。这个小男孩看到那个老人哭泣，便走进他的院子，爬到他的膝上，然后就坐在那儿。后来他妈妈问他对那个邻居说了什么，小男孩说：“什么也没说，我只是帮着他哭。”
　　

低端PS

四季 (Four Seasons)


野花 (Wild Flower)


时光流逝 (As time goes by)

野花

你知道吗
我是多么羡慕你
此时此刻，在冬天的怀抱里
沉沉入睡的小野花
无人的原野上
春风是苍天永恒的承诺
当某个清晨
你和露珠一起醒来
将会那样娇艳，芬芳
洁白的肩膀干净轻松
无须对谁感恩戴德
你在金色的阳光中微微颤抖
歌唱世界上最简单的快乐
好像十五年前
教室楼梯边一瞬间的我
那时我快活是因为做了应该做的事
因为相信前方有幸福等待着
今天我只羡慕你啊
不属于上苍，也不属于我
我无法窥测的你的心灵
不论空白还是充实
他们都说
你是超越了规则的自由的
也许有一天
你会疯狂地爱上
远处飘来的一场野火
生命的汁液扑向你嘶哑的爱人
纠缠着舞蹈，上升
在看不见的地方变成没有知觉的
轻盈的云朵
来的时候，你没有罪恶
去的时候，你依然没有罪恶


（林忆莲 野花，内容关系不大，就是觉得音乐蛮好听）

Wild Flower
XP, 01/28/09

Do you know that I envy you,
little wild flower?
At this very moment,
soundly asleep in the arms of winter,
on the field that no one has set a foot,
Spring wind is God's promise for ever.
You will wake up with a dew,
at a daybreak in the future.
You will be delicate, with a sweet smell,
your heart is as clean as your white shoulder.
You bear no burden, owe nothing.
You tremble in the golden sunlight,
singing for the simplest joy in the world,
just as how I felt fifteen years ago,
standing on the school stairway,
in a flashing moment that I can remember.
I was happy then for I did something I ought to do,
and I believed there would be happiness forward.
Now all that's left is my envy for you,
as you don't belong to God,
and you don't belong to me, either.
I can never see the inside of your mind,
whether it exists or not.
They all say that you are free,
unbound to the Law.
Perhaps one day, you will madly fall for
a wild fire coming from afar.
You throw all the nectar into your hoarse lover,
arise, twined together,
and turn into a weightless cloud beyond the horizon.
When you come,
you are not a sinner.
When you leave,
you are still not a sinner.

过年

星期一是大年初一，勤奋忙碌永远为别人操心的朋友Y又喊上我去她家吃饭。可以自豪地说，在她家厨房，我还是能帮上点忙的。于是Y和她的女儿，还有另一个朋友一家（婆婆媳妇儿子以及和我同月同日比我小整一百岁的小女儿），再加上一个我挺讨厌的孤身老女人（OK, I know I'm mean saying that, but something about her really bugs me: she just takes all kind gestures from others for granted and acts like everyone owes her. Well, I don't like that. Anyways.）。满满一桌子菜啊，当然，在百忙的充当各种下手之间，我也整出了著名的苏式红烧肉，并获得一定好评（电炉接触不良，烧的时间太长，最后瘦肉略干，遗憾）。

部分菜菜合影，特别友情提醒注意后排左二同学，看人家汁水的厚重感！


朋友女儿和我精心摆的拼盘


干杯！右上角白白胖胖咧得很大的嘴，就是在下的
再注意一下红烧肉！颜色淡了些，因为没有老抽，只好用生抽和少许红糖。



朋友的女儿，很有趣的小姑娘，14岁，有点自己的想法，也蛮有点艺术细胞。玩我电脑上的photoshop，练习出这么张图片，觉得挺好看的


谢谢你让我过了一个完美的新年。

I am a believer

The other night I had another bad dream, the end of which I fortunately could no longer recall when I woke up. In the beginning of that dream I seemed to be reliving the dreams I had for numerous times in childhood: my parents were scolding me harshly; I ran to the window and jumped. Of course we know in dreams the impossible become trivial, and we are not at all bound by physical laws as so often awkwardly in real life. Does that mean that our mind is more free than our body? I do not know. But I know in my dreams I can fly almost always. So in those dreams after I jumped out of the window I started to fly. I've become so familiarized with the surrounding buildings through the repeated virtual experiences. You see, I don't really fly like a bird in my dreams: I need to hop to the top of something of certain elevation before I lift off, and the higher I start, the freer I am of gravity. That is why I remember in particular what nearby constructions were when my mind was perhaps being fooled by rhythmic waves. An interesting detail about them is that they seemed to persist with what they looked like when I was really little, and did not change in later years when new buildings emerged one after another. With my deeply flawed ability to fly especially at takeoff, I would not have possibly been able to escape with all that crowdedness. But I have to believe that I can. Perhaps that is why my dreams refused to change with the reality. Of course, reality itself can not refuse the changes.

In the imaginative story of my dream, I this time was not a kid who spread her arms and flew away like a refugee supergirl. Instead, I transformed into a white swan, not so much more liberated from my old pathetic flying skill though. So I desperately flapped my wings and turned my head to look back. It then frightened me to see that my father had also transmuted into a big white bird, chasing after me furiously. Overwhelmed with panic, I sped up beating my wings, meanwhile fully utilizing my primate brain which apparently retained some of its sulci and gyri. After some quick reasoning, I decided to transform again into a goose, so that I can still fly high yet at the same time confuse the white bird after me. It is a bit funny that I didn't think of turning into an eagle or another raptor. But on the other hand, I know I could never be a predator, I just could not. The story line got fuzzy from that point. I vaguely remember that later I met a young girl who showed me something that revealed a terrifying truth. A father figure of hers stood by when she told me about this, and I maybe envied her for a little while because of that.

In fact, this absurd series of images is not a total surprise to me when I come to think of it. They may reflect, as it were, certain resentments that quietly grow in my heart at my father, for not having protected me even though he might have realized that I was being treated unfairly long before I did. I try hard to suppress such angers toward him or toward my mother. In fact, I don't think I consciously hate either of them. I understand that they did what they did as fellow human beings inescapable of flaws, and perhaps as a consequence of what they had been through earlier in their lives. But in the pathological mood swings of mine, those resentments stir up from time to time, even though I resent myself for holding these very grudges. A big part of the reason that I can't let go, I ratiocinate, is that I feel the urge to reconcile with them as soon as possible but just don't have the strength or courage to face them.

And there is another part of the reason. I look back and chew over flashes of my life, gradually realizing that as a matter of fact, probably not by choice, I have always been a believer. I was born to believe in something, and I did with whatever available to me that seemed most reasonable. So often I feel the yearning to follow, to please and to be devoted to something larger and greater than my own being. I believed that my parents loved me, whereas I had been an ungrateful, selfish child all along (meaning with effort, I will turn "good" and properly return their love and make them happy). I believed Science was a sacred course, for which I was willing to dedicate all my time and life. I believed in love, so I loved and gave without reservation. Sadly for me, these three things that I believed in so much fell apart one after another in front of my very own eyes. To tell the truth, I hold no, or very little grudge against all other people who might have broken my heart at some point, because they do not owe me anything and to trust them was my own choice in the first place. But parents are different. A child, from the day he/she came to this world, had no other option but to trust unconditionally their parents. One would think it horrible to use such trust for maximizing personal gain, would one not? My position is especially awkward however, as many other Chinese children who have been emotionally or physically abused perhaps to an even greater extent, since rooted in our culture is the ground rule that children must respect and obey their parents unquestioningly. Any doubt or challenge against this principle is not just frowned upon, but in fact considered a monstrous crime. The sense of shame may not only come from the outside criticisms, but also from within (which is often the more devastating one). I therefore suffer, from this constant conflict and struggle, as well as from the despair of an innate believer who has nothing to believe.

I have always been fairly lucky, however, with friendships. Over the years, joyful or painful, I met so many great friends who cared about me truly, who did not give up on me when I gave up on myself, without whom I might have not been able to live till this day. Because of that I know, if there is a God from above, He has not given up on me either. On the road ahead, I know I will always be a believer. In addition to the existence of the good side of human nature (note that this is a hazy term), I very likely will need to pick up something else more concrete to believe after serious, long contemplation. No matter what it is, I will hold it dearly and closely to my heart. I am a believer, therefore I am. Or is it I am, therefore I am a believer? I do not know. I just believe, that I am a believer.

拜年

过年过节最喜欢的事情就是给朋友发贺卡。告诉那些平时或者因为这样那样的原因而疏于联系的亲爱的朋友们，我想着你，我祝福你。还有隐藏的意思：谢谢你做我的朋友。
God Bless You All.

E版效果

In the pursuit of happiness

从明天起，做一个冷酷的人
喂马，劈柴，什么都不care
从明天起，不吃粮食和蔬菜
In the pursuit of happiness，面朝大海，I stand by

从明天起，再也没有一个亲人
亲人是生僻的典故
而幸福的闪电告诉我的
我将告诉每一个人
给每一条河每一座山取一个无关的名字

陌生人，我会为你祝福
愿你有一个灿烂的前程
愿你有情人终成眷属
愿你在尘世获得幸福
In the pursuit of happiness, I too, stand by

今天天气开始回暖一些，到了学校才发现是马丁路德纪念日放假。中午离开的时候，有风，吹斜楼前的喷泉，又忍不住盯着看。突然发现喷泉边有道彩虹，赶紧奔回去借了相机拍下来。

走近一些，彩虹的位置微微变化。

两年前因为花期过去而为之惆怅过的小花又开放了，还早，只稀稀落落几朵，大概因为污染的缘故边缘发黄。不过，我还是觉得很美丽。

永远在一起

昨天晚上第一次正式跑去抱宝宝，两个多小时一共只抱了两个。第一个叫William，据说吃了一瓶奶被拍了20分钟还没打出嗝来，睁着眼睛昏昏欲睡的样子。小心翼翼从护士大娘那里接过来，先是战战兢兢按指示保持人家和水平面成比较大的锐角，一只手在后面拍呀拍。小Bill的呼吸好像有点问题，我仔细竖着耳朵也没完全搞清他打嗝了没有，怎么样才是在打嗝？感觉是几乎肯定打了的。旁边另外一个护士过了会儿让我把锐角变得小一点，不知不觉间我发现自己竟然很自然地用上了小时候电视里看到的哄小孩睡觉的姿势，还蛮老到的！就是两只手侧抱，一只手掌轻轻地在宝宝身上有节奏地拍动，一边哼哼歌。和Alani一样，本来已经闭目养神的小William也是一听到歌声就使劲把眼睛打开一条缝，窥视一下声音来源的可亲或者可憎度，然后又接着觉觉了。听护士说，他本来马上就可以出院的，可是突然出现心律的问题...希望可以早点好啊。。。至少这个夜晚的这个时刻，他在我的怀抱里沉沉睡去，呼吸也变得均匀。

后来抱的是一个比较大一点的宝宝，女婴，在输液。抱着她的那个负责护士一看就是不耐烦的样子，我接过来以后，那个护士坐了一会就开始慢悠悠地讲手机。我觉得挺生气的，因为培训的那天明明看见墙上有写育婴室里不准带手机啊。她讲了起码有一个小时！而且输液完了仪器报警还要我喊她几遍才慢悠悠地过来，K，我们做小猴子实验一管输完的时候也比这动作快好不好？因为输液，小女婴的手脚都很凉，而我一般手冰冷的，不知是不是最近红豆吃多了，当时咱这双大手可温暖了，象个永远不会有危险的火炉！慢慢的宝宝的手脚真的热多了呢。我发现，哄小孩子，一个是要轻轻摇晃，哼歌，一个就是塞奶嘴（pacifier）！后者最管用。我大概抱了一个半小时的样子，到最后宝宝渐渐止不住地哭，我想八成是饿了，因为有好几次她拼命在我身上找乳汁的来源！可是，我不是不想啊，我没有啊！而且义工既不能喂宝宝，也不能给他们换尿布。而那个护士呢，还在慢慢悠悠地讲电话。。。11点多我要赶最后一班车只好走了，女娃娃还在哭，不过还好另外一个护士还是什么相关人员走过来，我就把宝宝交给她了。婴儿床边的名字据说都是护士贴的，所以一点也不奇怪，这个女婴的床边根本没有名字。那个不知名的宝宝，有一双很漂亮的眼睛。十几年后，不知道有多少少年会为她倾倒。

等车的时候，我在想，那些宝宝，大概是世界上最容易信任别人的人。对母亲的信任，应该是哺乳动物的本能吧。笑笑抬头看看天，虽然冷，可是没有云，一颗颗星星发着清亮的光。我看见大大的北斗，总没想起来花时间去认全的，一如既往沉默地挂在天上。在所有人类有限的生命里，它们永远都在一起。

Baby don't cry

在因为“又抑郁了”而错过两次抱宝宝培训之后，一度心灰意冷。一方面觉得自己这么背信弃义，人家十之八久不想要我了；另一方面，还是对自己的状态没有信心，要是情绪上来了抱着宝宝那可怎么办呀。所以，曾经想让一切悄悄地随风而去。生活中，很多东西都是不知不觉，悄无声息地消失的。但是！儿童医院义工中心竟然又给我发了一封培训通知，就是今天啦。两星期前收到的时候精神为之一振，决定不做声，跟着感觉走。到了这周末不断放松心情，没有出现起不了床的状况，中午时分便雌纠纠顶着相对凛冽的寒风一路颠簸着跑到儿童医院去了。

没有想到的是，除了一个老先生大致介绍了一些事项内容，今天就有机会试着抱抱宝宝。进了育婴室，一个个小极了小极了的娃娃躺在大篮子里。和本来想像中电视电影里面的不一样，每个宝宝都有好大一块地盘。其实难怪，电视上看到的是正常出生的宝宝，可是这里的宝宝，多多少少都是生了病的。新义工开始抱的是中等病况的娃娃，有刚出生的，有早产的。状况最严重的娃娃要干了四五年有经验的义工才可以碰的。这样我也放点心，要是眼看着哪个宝宝。。。估计我还是受不大了的。

四个大育婴室里，每个小娃娃身上都多少缠着一些测量仪器的导线。这情形对于做了多年医学实验的我，倒不是很陌生，也不害怕。不过，老实讲，长这么大，要是结婚早，孩子都应该能打酱油了，可我还从来没有抱过刚出生的宝宝呢。老先生带我们走到一个吸氧气，鼻饲奶水的深色皮肤宝宝面前，慈祥地转向我们，问谁想先试试。另两个女孩开始都不是很积极，我。。。拼了！

当我战战兢兢在摇椅上坐下，老先生把娃娃递过来的时候，我只觉得全身每个细胞都是僵硬的。娃娃热乎乎的小脑袋碰到我的胳膊，融化的好像是我的心。旁边的护士和老先生都很和蔼，叫我不要紧张。大概我一紧张，宝宝也紧张，本来睡着的，没一分钟嘴巴一扁大哭起来。老先生赶快把pacifier往宝宝嘴里塞过去，真灵哎，人家马上就不哭了。我深呼吸N口气，按护士说的松弛了身体往后靠，轻轻地哼起〈红河谷〉。实战发现，节奏简单的曲子哄宝宝感觉最好！宝宝听到我的声音，似乎明显平静了一下，但是大约又不是很放心，使劲儿使劲儿把眼睛睁开N个半秒钟视察我，我赶紧递上谄媚的笑容。宝宝比较满意，沉沉地又睡了，我就一直一直小声给他哼着歌！其实这样生病的娃娃，身上插那么多东西，肯定会有些不舒服的。希望他可以健康的长大，等他象我这么大的时候，我或者老了，或者离开，但是也许他会比我快乐，比我坚强，比我幸福。

小时候的事情，我已经不记得了，那两个最可能曾经哄我不哭的人，现在都已不在人世。我坐在这里，怀中抱着小小的婴孩，好像在那一瞬间，更加理解生命的意义，冲淡了心里的悲哀。对了，这个宝宝叫Alani，特地查了一下，是橘子或者橘子树的意思。

冬季到网上来看花

注明：所有图片来源于互联网。

K: The English illustrations are just added for you! :)

兰花，心中传统的形象。若是白色，更好。

Chinese orchid. I'd love it even more if it's white.

经典玫瑰，象满天星星下红衣女郎的裙摆。

Roses are red; Violets are blue; Sugar is sweet; and so are you :) Classics, isn't it?

勿忘我。真是矛盾啊，如果有一天我离去，希望没有人记得我。又有一点点，希望被记得。

Forget-me-not. To me the name itself is a little poem.

充满风情的太平洋岛屿上著名的鸡蛋花。

Egg flower? Go Hawaii!

蓝眼睛的玛丽。第一次见到是十年前，地上小小一片，象星星，象最纯洁的无辜的眼睛。

Blue-eyed Mary. Awwww. I saw this flower about 10 years ago in a botanic garden. Just couldn't forget about it.

其实白色是因为她拒绝所有的光明，所以，她也很脆弱。

Lily. Yeah I like white flowers.

妇姑相唤浴蚕去，闲着中庭栀子花。想来不“浴蚕”的季节，她是不“闲”的

Gardenia. Very classical in ancient Chinese poetry (yeah I love poetry too), for the pronunciation of it sounds similar to "understanding you". Also very, very fragrant!

梅须逊雪三分白，雪却输梅一段香

Plumb flower. Favored by ancient Chinese intellects. This flower blooms in late winter, sometimes while it's still snowing. Considered to represent one's integrity despite extremely difficult conditions.

城中桃李愁风雨，春在田间油菜花：）

Flower of rapeseed. A pretty typical cash crop. When a whole field is covered with its bright yellow, it's simply splendid.

原来摩羯座的诞生花是满天繁星，英文的名称更好， baby's breath，我稀饭～

Yeah it's baby's breath, Capricorn's flower :)

处女座的诞生花大理花，先给这颜色晕得七荤八素的。。。再看双鱼座，“温柔浪漫，具有直觉性和艺术性，肯自我牺性”，这每条都是反的，也太离谱了吧，决定从此憎恨郁金香！

Supposed to be Virgo's flower (no I'm not really a big fan of horoscope, nevertheless...)

绿玫瑰

So you see I was not lying :D 

你在他乡还好吗？

因为生日陆续收到一些祝福，觉得很开心也很感动，今天心情好些了，想想那个远方的最近比较郁闷的朋友，是时候跟她谈谈了。忙碌了一天回到家里赶紧给她打了个电话，本来是劝解她的。这个朋友，什么都好，就是太喜欢给自己压力，什么事情没有做到最好就自责不已。我现在不能听人说人家郁闷，特别是那些没有家庭的单身朋友，一听就着急，扑上去就苦口婆心地跟人说，你不要抑郁啊，时间长了不好！血的教训，我自己，就是因为当初不懂得保护自己，硬生生地拖了太久，弄得现在不是一般的病态。更何况，这是个七八年的好友。结果呢，不知道怎么搞的，劝着劝着，提到父母，我自己居然在电话里失声痛哭，太糟糕了，人家还要反过来劝我，汗。

相互该说的都说了，朋友又要忙她的实验去，而我挂了电话，仍然头昏脑胀，被绝望痛苦的情绪笼罩着。最近干了不少不正常的事情，比如半夜里等车的时候放声大哭，比如半夜里突然离开公寓，坐一个多小时的车走着很不安全的夜路跑到学校睡一个晚上，暴饮暴食，随时流泪之类都是小菜。如果时光能够倒流，我会对当年的自己说，伤心可以，不可以一直放任自己伤心，不可以放任任何人不断地伤你的心，任何人都不可以。我希望，当年有人这样告诉我，或者。。。写不下去了，开大音乐咬着被子放声大哭一下。。。可能我的性格是一个奇特的组合，可能一切都是上天的安排。又怎么样呢，原来我讨好了几十年的人其实可能对我原本无情，冷冷也可能是无知地把我逼到心灵的绝境，而且，现在还特别得恨我。而我的成长背景，又不允许我怨恨他们。当我不能摆脱自己的病态，譬如现在，这种绝望而孤独的心情，使得生不如死。朋友说了许多宽慰鼓励的话，我很感激。我也曾反复对她说，不要为我担心，我会努力坚持。如果万一有一天没有坚持下去，你应该为我开心，那是我终于得到了解脱。当然，只是打打预防针，一切都会好起来。

朋友提到七八年前初相识之际我们一起出去野营，我跳上石头桌子为他们唱歌，那个时候，我是个多么开心的人啊。

那个笑容不再来

曾经爱着科学


象朋友说的，人人都有自己的不幸，在某个时候，在某个地方。大概出于同病相怜的心理，我对那些身在异乡的人有特别的牵挂，希望你们在他乡，都要好好的。不要太孤独，不要给自己太大压力。多多珍重，也只有你自己，才能珍重你。

流着眼泪打完这些字，我还是想好好的，我想活下去。记得在异国的第一个生日，在学校走廊里碰到隔壁实验室年长我十岁的姐姐，傻乎乎跟她提起是我的生日，她赶紧把我带回家做了点吃的表示一下庆祝。Kathy现在应该早就结婚生子了，希望你在远方幸福。希望我能够把你当初给我的温暖，传递给别人。

雪绒花

今天是我的生日。照理，生日是个很让我郁闷的日子，本来所有应该开心的日子都让我郁闷，而生日又是所谓“母难日”，所以更郁闷。早上挣扎着爬起来，已经想好了晚上回来大哭N场的结局。

从小到大，貌似身边和我同一天生日的人巨多。高中有个同班大帅哥，和我同年同月同日生。当然，生活不是四儿说的那样，so，大帅哥同学现在是别人的老公。好像别的班也有这一天生日的。到了大学，同班居然又有个同年同月同日的（这个是中等）帅哥！现在一路漂泊到这个牛仔城市，好嘛，和同一个实验室同事的小儿子还是同月同日。当然，这个小帅哥年龄是我的三分之一。。。因为如此，那个同事对我说，每一年你的生日，我都会给你发信说句生日快乐，这样每年都至少会有一个人祝福你的！这些都不稀奇，比较搞的是，今天上午接个朋友的电话，说我们那个准妈妈朋友已经光荣转正。这位目前还不到一天大的小朋友，你猜怎么着，还是和我同月同日。年龄，咱就不做比较了。。。不管怎么说，有个女的同行人了。。。

但是白天都没有郁闷得很厉害，就是一个远方的好朋友跟我提到她最近很郁闷，看完信哭了一下下。要说我反正是烂人一个了，可是她好好啊，为什么生活这么不长眼呢？不过一番email交流，最后她说她会好起来的，就有点高兴。另外就是忙着满世界送我的宝贝CD，有人专门写信来说很喜欢很喜欢，很是开心了一回～

下午的时候小塞居然冒出来，可怜的小同学跑来一看，满实验室一个都不认识了，唯一一个认识的 － 就是我，当时心情很差 － 躲在角落里戴着耳机放很响的音乐。等终于打个照面，我黑一跳啊黑一跳，本来精瘦的小塞愣是丰满了许多，头上的卷毛也直了，变成一中等好看的小青年咧。不过看到熟面孔还是蛮开心的，还是喜欢他那亲热的招呼方式和明朗的笑容。和实验室另外两个同事也因为比较熟点了感觉更亲切些，而且俄国老头今天没来！ － 为什么有时候一点极小的事情就可以让我开心起来呢？

对自己这种极不稳定的状态真是没有信心，所以也不下什么新决心了。不知道为什么，有种预感新的一年会发生改变，要么彻底结束，要么从根本上扭转。不论如何，祝愿天下所有知道和不知道自己生日的人（特别坏的人除外）生日快乐，有生的日子天天快乐。

继续自娱自乐一哈～
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TTVUTUTS
SVU
TTTTQQQSTT
TSRSRSTQ
QPO
OPQ SRQR QPPOO

XWV XWV
VUTUS
XWV XWV
VUTUVV
XWV XWV
VUTUS
XWV XWV
VVVUV

Depend on you （副歌部分）
————————————————
MQPO ON NONM
MQPO OPOPQQ
LMON MNPO ONMM

以及一些耳熟能详的.......

《送别》

LJLO MOL LHIJ IHI LJLO NMOL LIJK GA

《雪绒花》
J-L-P-- O-L-K--
J-J-JKL-M-L-
J-L-P-- O-L-K--
J-L-LMN-O-- O--
P-L-NML-J-L-O--
M-O-P-O-N-L--
J-L-P-- O-L-K--
J-L-LMN-O-- O--


《小步舞曲》

LHIJKLHH MKLMNOHH K LKJIJ

KJIHI JIHGH JHIJHI EFGEH FGHFGFGE

LHIJKLHH MKLMNOHH K LKJIJ

KJIHI JIHGH



《生日快乐》

EEFEHG EEFEIH

EELJHGF KKJHIH
枉凝眉（红楼梦片头）


MM-- MM--
TUTTQ ST TQ--
PQP PM OP OPM--
O PQ QM QP--
QSTU TU TUQS--
QL MO MQ PQMO--
N NMN PQPNSQPNQPQLOMM--
VTT- VW VWVWTVT T-SQQ-


梁祝
CEFHIFHE LOMLJLI IJ GF EFHI CHFEFHE JLGIFHE CEC EFGIF
EFHILJ IJIH FECH FHFE CEFHE

《梁祝》Flash键盘钢琴谱
LJIH IGFE
NMNLMKJL IJLIJKJIH
LGIFHE FHE
CEFHI FHE
LOMLJLI
IJGFEFHICHFEFHE
JLGIFHE CECEFGIF
EFHILJIJIHFECH FHFECEFHE
JLIJIHGFE


该死的温柔
HI JMMJI GH ILLIH
FGHKKHFGE FGHFHJI HI
JMMJI GILLMJIH
FGHKKHFGE HJIGEIH


有和弦的小星星吧(注意上行右手，下行左手)这个也挺容易的
HHLL MML- KKJJ IIH-
AECE AECE AECE AECE


LLKK JJI- LLKK JJI-
AECE AECE AECE AECE


卡农
SQR SQR SLMN OPQR
QOP QOP QJKL MNON
MON MLK LKJK LMNO
MON ONO NLMN OPQR
SQR SQR SLMN OPQR
QOP QOP QJKL MNON
MON MLK LKJK LONO
MON ONO NLMN OPQRS


如果云知道
lljij hhhihe lllljij hijll honm m mlkm mlmo llll loh kjko jihi ipp poqp p
qqqq p ol qqqq po m qqq p pom qqq p pql oom q pp op lqs mo


歌唱祖国
eehejhlml lloomlkml l llmmii ilkj eellmlkjjih h lloommlk l m iillm lkjih h
hejj jhmm ffiijihgfe heffehij immllji m l oooolm o mlkml ooo llmlkjih


我愿意
lljih ijiih fhffe
lljih ijiih fhfijikjih
hhhih onmml jih hhhihij
hhhih onmml oomjhi jji
eljih eljih honnm lmljl
honnm llojih jkjhfhfe
eljih eljijih honnm lmljl
honnm llojih jkjhfh kjhfh ih

旋木
lpopopspononl lnononmmnopq
ommmmmrqpq mpqpqpoomqp
lpopopspononl lonnnnmmnopq
ommmmmrqpq mpopoppooqo
posqq qqpol lonmnonmlqq
qpqrp qppo rqomlqp
posqq qpqq lonmnonmlqq
qpqrp qppo rqrono


男儿当自强
MOMOMLM
MOMOLMP
QOPS QPQO
PQOPM
OPMOL
MOPOML MOL
MOMLM OPOML
MOLMP QSPQT
QTSRQSQPQ
QSTUTSQ QSTUSTU
TUTSQSTUTSQSP
QPOPSRQSP
PQSTQSQPO MPO
MOPQN NQPNM
MOMLM
MOMLM
QSPQT

梦醒了(个人摸索的)
jjjjiih iiihif hhhhffhjiihfe
jjlljih iiijfi hhhhffhjiihfh
kjkjhjh hhfhhhhhfji
kjkjhjh hhfllllljjkml
onmlljlml jlmmomlji
jihijm jihijn mnooooompo
mq mo


Kiss The Rain（灰）
LOP PQQ OPQ PSS STU UVV W XWV U
VUS STT SRRSS OPQ QRR SRQ Q P
LOP PQQ OPQ PSS STU UVV WXWV U
VUS STT SRRSS OPQR M O N O


简化版 德沃夏克 的
《自新大*陆》
JLL JIH IJLJI
JLL JIH IJIHH
MOO NLM MONLM
JLL JIH IJIHH


约定》
LOPQPOQPLL JMNONMONJL MLLKKOJJPO
PQRQQPOMP LOPQPOQPNL QMNONMONJL
MLLKKOPQO MNOMOTSS POSQ QPONOMJM
OPOTR RQRMNOP QRSSSTO
SNPO PQMORQRSP POSQ QPONOMJM
OPOTR RQRMNOP QRSSSTO
SNPO PQRMRQOPO


《星语心愿》歌谱
TVUTSTQ TSTVUVUTUV
VWXXXXW VUTUS TVUTST
QSTXWVUV VUTTTTSSTQ
SSTXWVUVV VUTTSUT
《菊花台》歌谱


JJIJ JLJIJ HHIJLJ IIHI
JLML MLLJL EJIJLJIIIHI
JJIJ JLJIJ HHIJLJ IIHI
JLML MLLJL JIJLJIIH
HIJJLM MQPOOML MLJIH
FHIIHI HIJJLM MQPOOPO
LLJNOHIJ I H


好心分手
JLLLLLLLKJ JLLJLOPNML JMLMNOJJII HMLMLMOLLML
HIJJKL JLNMNPOMNOJKL LMNMNOM KLMMNOMMONOQP NOPLMN RRRQPQO LLONOQP QQQQPQO JJMLMNNNONMNM JLMLMNO

OONOQQPPONOQPPOO


《同一首歌》
E H I J K J H I H F H
E H I J J K L H K J L I J I
J L O N M M
L L M N M L J
K K L M L K J I G G F E F H
O M K L M N N N N M L J
O M K L M F F F M K J I
E H I J K J H H I I I I H F F
G G F E M L I I K K K J I H


《茉莉花》
j j l m o o m l l m l
j j l m o o m l l m l
l l l j l m m l
j i j l j i h h i h
j i h j i j l m o l
i j l i j h f e
f h i j h i h f e


<让我们荡起双桨>
FHIJLLJHIF
让我们荡起双桨
HIJLLMIJ
小船儿推开波浪
JLMLMONMLMJ
海面倒影着美丽的白塔
HIJLHFHIJML
四周环绕着绿树红墙
JMMLKJ IJLFHI HIJLLMONMLJM
小船儿轻轻 飘荡在水中 迎面吹来了凉爽的风


国际歌
HK JLKHFIG
IL JIHGGF
HKJLKHFI-G I LK JLN-J K
ML J-I JKI J-H
HG HIIL-J J-J
LLJHHGHM-K
IJKJLKKIH
MLK-H F I-G LK
J-I H H
HM-LHK J
JJIHILL
MLK-H F I-G
LK JJ IHM
MONMLMN
NMMLLK


莱茵梦 提供《忘情水》
OP-QSSSSQS VVVVTQS OOOOOP QSSSTQ PPPQQOP OP-QSSSSQS
VVVVTQS OOOOOP QSSSTQ PPPOMLO


嘿嘿，这首，短线代表等一拍哈 《友谊地久天长》
LO-OO OP-OP QPO-OQ-S-T TS-QQ OP-OP QPO-MM-LO

《梦中的婚礼》
MMNNOONNMMJJHHFFLLKKJKLK KKLLMMNNLLIIKKJJIIKJ
JFHJIJ FHJIJ FHKJK FHKJK KJKKLLMLMJ
QMOQPQ MOQPQ MORQR MORQR RQRRSSTSTQ
O JJKK IINN IIJJ HHMLM HHII GJIJ
O OOPP ONML LMLJ O OOPP ONML LMLM


《约定》
LOPQPOQPLL JMNONMONJL MLLKKOJJPO
PQRQQPOMP LOPQPOQPNL QMNONMONJL
MLLKKOPQO MNOMOTSS POSQ QPONOMJM
OPOTR RQRMNOP QRSSSTO
SNPO PQMORQRSP POSQ QPONOMJM
OPOTR RQRMNOP QRSSSTO
SNPO PQRMRQOPO


《美丽的神话》
MQN MOPOQ MTSTSPRQ
MTSPQRQ O MQPNM
MQNMOPOQ MTSTSPRQ
MTSPQRQPO MPONM

MNOPQONL MOPQQ

MNOPQONLMOPOO MPONM

MNOPQONL MOPQQ

MNOPQONLMOPOO OOPQONLONMNT

《有没有人告诉你》

JMMMMMMMMJKLK JLLLLLLLMNNJ

JMMMMMMMMQQP NNNNNJONON

JMMMMMMMMJKLK ILLLLLLLMNNJ

jMMMMMMMMQQP NNNNNNNMNM

QTQQQQOMJJQP JSSSSSSSTUUQ

QTQQQQOMJJQP PPPPPJNNM


《罗密欧与茱丽叶》

TVUQ QSQTTSRS SRQP PPOPQ

TVUQ QSQT TWU QVUTS VUTST

《致爱丽斯》Flash键盘钢琴谱
QPQPQNPOMHJMNJLNOJQPQPQNPOMHJMNJONMNOPQLRQPKQPOJPONNJQQQ
QPQPQNPOMHJMNJLNOJQPQPQNPOMHJMNJONMORQQPPRTSR
QPONMMLMNOPPQRMOPNOPQSPNOPQSPNQQQQQP

《卡农》 括号表示两个键一起按，-表示停顿
H-JLOE-ILN F-HJMC-GIL
D-FHKA-EHJD-FHKE-GIL
(HQ)-JLO (EP)-GIL (OF)-HJM (NC)-GJL
(MD)-FHK (LA)-CEH (MD)-FHK (NE)-GIL

ONOH (GB)LIJ (CH)ONM (CN)QST
(DR)QPR (QA)PON (DM)LKJ (EI)KJI
(EH)IJK (EG)ILK (FJ)MLK (CL)KJI
(DH)FMN (AO)NML (DK)JIM LML

(SJ)QRS-QR(SE)LMNOPQR
(FQ)OPQ-JK(GL)MLKLJKL
(FK)MLK-JI(JE)IHIJKLM
(FK)MLM-NO(GL)MNOPQRS
(SI)QRS-QR(SE)LMNOPQR
(FQ)OPQ-JK(GL)MLKLJKL
(FK)MLK-JI(EJ)IHIJKLM
(FK)MLM-NO(GL)MNOPQRS

(HQ)-JLO (EP)-GIL (OF)-HJM (NC)-GJL
(MD)-FHK (LA)-CEH (MD)-FHK (NE)-GILNQOQPO


《我真的受伤了》

前奏： momqp inipo mrqomo po
开始： momqp inipo momqppo psq momqp inipo mrqo mopo rrrqp pspqo rrrqpop qqrq ttttspr qpom qoosqpp momqp inipo momqppo psq tttts pspqpo mrqomo po


《两只蝴蝶》
QPQ PQPO MOP PQPOMOL
QPQ PQPO MOP PQPOMOP
QPQ PQPO MOP PQPOMOL
QSS STSQ PQP PQPOMOO
SSTVUUTQPQ
QSTT MQP
QSSQSVUTUQ
TTUTSQPLMO


王力宏的《唯一》
JLMLMNLJL LLLKKKJIHJ
KKKJIHJ HIHJI JIHI
JLMLMNLJL LLLKKKJIHJ
KKKJIHJLO PQPOQOPOM QPOPQ
Q P OOOLOPQ NNNLNOP
QQRQOP
Q P OOOLOPQ NNNLNOPQQM
LRQOL QP OOOONOLJM
QPOOOONOLJM


爱的罗曼史钢琴曲，强烈要求加上半音！

QQQQPO ONMMOQ
TTTTSR RQPPQR
QPQSRQ QPOONM
NNNNON MMMMNOM

EDELWEISS(雪绒花）
C-E-I--H-E-D--
C-C-CDE-F--E--
C-E-I--H-E-D--
C-E-EFG-H--H--
I-E-GFE-C-E-H--
F-H-I-H-G--E--
C-E-I--H-E-D--
C-E-EFG-H--H--

醉清风

QPPQOO
QRPPPOP
PQQ
QPPPQOO
QQPPQOPQP
SSSSP PQ
POPQ
SSSSP PQOOO MO
RQOMOMO RQOMOOMOP
SSUVWVV
VTSQPO
QRSSPP QOO
SSUV WVVWXX UWVV
SQPOO QRSPLQOO


世上只有妈妈好
QPNPSQPQ
NPQPNMLJPNM
MNPPQNML
PNMLJLI

我有一只小毛驴

oooqsssstttvs
srrrtqqqspppps
soooqsssstttvs
srrrtqqqsppppo


等一分钟

Q Q S T T T Q Q S T T T S Q S T Q S t

我在等一分钟 或许下一分钟 看到你闪躲的眼

Q Q S T T T T S Q P Q S P Q

我不会让伤心的泪 挂满你的脸

Q Q S T T T Q Q S T T T S Q S V U S Q T
我在等一分钟 或许下一分钟 能够感觉你也心痛

Q Q P O P Q P O P S P Q M
那一年我不会让离别成永远

梁静茹--小手拉大手
l (lm)(op) Q t S q (pp)O
还记得那场音乐会的烟火
o (po)(no)Q m O Q Q P
还记得那个凉凉的深秋
p (qp)(op) S o P q(pp)O
还记得人潮把你推向了我
o (po)(no)S m O M m L
游乐园拥挤的正是时候
l (lm)(op)Q t S q (pp)O
一个夜晚坚持不睡的等候
o (po)(no)Q m O Q Q -P
一起泡温泉奢侈的享受
p (qp)(op) S o P q(pp)-O
有一次日记里愚蠢的困惑
o (po)(no)S t O P o-O
因为你的微笑幻化成风
q (rq)(pq)R r P Q r-R
你大大的勇敢保护着我
r (sr)(sr)Q p O P q -Q
我小小的关怀喋喋不休
q (qp)(oq) Q p P p(op)-P
感谢我们一起走了那么久
p (pq)(rp)T s S R s-S
又再一起回到凉凉深秋
p (qp)(qs)-S
给你我的手
p (qp)(qs)-S
像温柔野兽
s (ts) (tu) V q Q T s-S-
把自由交给草原的辽阔
(so)(po)R q P O
我们小手拉大手
q Q p-o O
一起交 游
o P m O Q s-S
今天别想太多
p (qp)(qs)
你是我的梦
p (qp)(qs)-S
像北方的风
s (ts)(tu) Vq Q T s-S-
却正能帮我悠扬的哀愁
(so)(po)R q P O
我们小手拉大手
q Q p-oOo P m O P O
今天加油向昨天挥挥手
注:小写为半个音节,大写为一个音节.()为两个半音合为一个音节,-为与后一个音节组成拉长音.
主要是自己音调控制好.我觉得半音弹快点,两个半音的就一个音的正常速度.拉长的就按久点

《不能说的秘密》
EHHH EGGG
EHHH EIII
EHHH EGGG
EHHH EIII
EKKKK KJJ KKKLJIHGGH
ELLLL LKK LLLLLKKJJI
EKKKK KJJ KKKLJIHGGIH
FHLMH LLLLLKKJJI
HONOOLLLLKKJ
HONOOLLLLPPO
HONONMHNMNML
HMLMLKKJKLMML
HONOOLLLLKKJ
HONOOLLLLPPO
HONONM
HNMNML
HMLMLKKJKLMML
HLHKJ

女人花

JLLML ILLML HIJOMJL MOOPO MLMJIH FHILJIH JLQ QQPPOL JLO OOMMLJ JLQ QQPPOM MOP PPQNML JLLML ILLML HIJOMJL MOOPO MLMJIH FHILJIH

暖暖
EHIIJJIJJIJLJH HEF JI(JI)HIJ
EHIIJJIJJIJLJH HEF JI(JI)HIH
HGFHI HIJLIJH
HGFHI(JI)HIJ
HGFHI HIJLLJM
JIH JI(JI)HIH
HJKLHJKL
MNOJKL
MLKLOO
MMNON
LJKLMNONML
KLMKLOO
ONLHJIH

《同一首歌》
E H I J K J H I H F H
E H I J J K L H K J L I J I
J L O N M M
L L M N M L J
K K L M L K J I G G F E F H
O M K L M N N N N M L J
O M K L M F F F M K J I
E H I J K J H H I I I I H F F
G G F E M L I I K K K J I H

<我的知足>
onoss onoq onolqpmnop
onossstutq tuvsqqrqmpo
ovutrp outspo
pqr rts qpq qrs
ovutruvw swuv tuvtuvws
oooss onoq onolq pmnop
onoss stuvs tuvsq qrqmpo
ovutrp outspo
pqr rts qpq qrs
ovutruvw swuv tuvtuvwwvus
onoss onoq onolqpmnop
onossstutq tuvsqqrqmpo
tuvsq qrqmpo
tuvwv qrqmpo